Appreciate or Appropriate?
I remember in the fifth grade that whenever my mom made me wear an itchy shalwar kameez and draw on a bindi with liquid eyeliner, I would rub it off when I stepped outside and sink into my seat in the car so no one would see me not wearing jeans. I remember feeling embarrassed when teachers couldn’t pronounce my name or when a fellow, ignorant 10-year-old would find out that I wasn’t Christian.
“Does that mean you don’t celebrate Christmas?” they would ask in disbelief. “Wow, that must be horrible, I’m so sorry.”
Until the middle of my freshman year, I completely distanced myself from the Indian subcontinent and pretended not to have any knowledge of my rich culture. Until the middle of my first year in high school, I took every racist microaggression as a compliment and prided myself in not being Indian enough.
Frankly, I have many stories about hearing little kids my age talk about my heritage in a degrading manner, or how my parents never let me take curry to school because they knew my classmates would make fun of me, or how I thought I was so lucky that I was fair-skinned. Even now, I catch myself freaking out about a tan because I won’t be beautiful enough.
I talk about India openly now. I’ll let you know that I was born in my mother’s hometown. That I am from Kerala, which is nothing but rain, sugarcane and fond memories to me.
I’ll let you know that mehndi – henna – is put on the bride’s hands and feet before her wedding in a joyous ceremony. That my bindi is a representation of the third eye and the sixth chakra worn by mainly Hindu women but also women of other South Asian religions. I’ll let you know that the Aum symbol is one of the most important symbols in Hinduism and a spiritual icon. I’ll let you know that all of these are important to me and millions of other people and are not a prop used to look worldly.
All my life I’ve been insulted for Diwali and Holi (religious festivals regarding the destruction of evil and love) and my ethnicity. I’ll also be insulted for it in the future while someone else can draw ying and yang with “henna” – another scared symbol from the Taoist faith. Or when they can wear a nose chain and then be considered accepting of “out-of-the-norm” cultures. It won’t just be me, people will go on with kimonos (used for festivals and formal events) and be geishas (traditional Japanese entertainers) for Halloween. They’ll be praised for taking a risk with getting dreads while little girls get kicked out of school for having them.
I’m so proud of who I am now, and I want to make sure everyone is proud of where they’re from. I want to make sure people understand that you can’t pick and choose what you think is cute from a culture, whether it be their slang or language, their religion or clothes, then mock us for embracing it. I want to make sure people know that there’s a difference between the verbs “appreciate” and “appropriate.”
Senior Divya Jagadeesh likes patterned socks, The Lumineers' album "Cleopatra" and almost any kind of podcast. She plans to study English and be at the...
Priyanka • Oct 12, 2015 at 7:51 pm
Wow this v good !! I am glad you are bringing awareness for these type of issues. Keep up the good work…we are all very proud of you..!
Pushban Rajaiyan • Sep 30, 2015 at 1:30 pm
Hi Divya,
Nice article! I love to see you talking more about India now :-). My hearty congratulations. Way to go. Keep writing, you will be an inspiration for lot of other Indian kids out there. You know what? It’s been long time I read anything this big. Thanks for letting me read. When is your next article?
Ragu Govindaraju • Sep 30, 2015 at 9:09 am
Divya,
Great job, your thoughts and feelings expressed very well here. I think everyone will appropriately appreciate several things if they know the importance and culture. Though we follow a wide variety of diversity in all sorts, schools might deny some just to keep the kids not to feel any difference of opinion. Your parents had a thought process and realized it, appropriately appreciate them.
One man’s food is other man’s poison, you should ask your parents to pack some curry in your lunch box as long as you are okay with it. Indian curries have that aroma much better than small of Tuna, in my opinion. Though the whole mankind has the same nose to smell, mouth to eat – it’s the brought up, surroundings and one is used to rather than good or bad.
Let’s celebrate all festivals Diwali, Christmas and what not. Celebrations and festivals bring people together, rejoice the life.
Of course, we are proud about where we are from and we are proud to see you bold enough express your thoughts.
Take care
Sudalaimani Senthil • Sep 30, 2015 at 8:30 am
Very nice ..fresh positive way of presenting your thoughts in niche way on the rich culture/aspects about India. Your writing style is captivating..as it portrayed from 10yr old mind till teenager thought. .everyone..take a note..future writer is here..way to go Divya..
Prasanna • Sep 30, 2015 at 1:26 am
Hey Divya.. I enjoyed reading your article on embracing your roots. Clearly you have a gift for writing so keep posting more articles. you go girl!!
M S Prabhakar • Sep 29, 2015 at 11:17 pm
Great read. Good job Divya
Padma • Sep 29, 2015 at 9:22 pm
Proud of you Divya. Hats off and salute